The Time is Now

I rarely ever free write anything on Tumblr, but this is something that has been on my mind for some time.

I replay the situation a hundred times, but for some reason I can’t stay mad at him. I don’t know if it’s because I still love him.. but I know he wasn’t trying to hurt me intentionally. I was once spiteful and angry. Then I came to a realization that life is too short. He will be one of the many guys who well let me down in my life. Oh well.

Last week was a nightmare. Yet again, it was pure ignorance. I really didn’t know. I don’t agree that you should be upset about it.

I always come back and think about why I got upset that Tuesday night. Let’s face the facts: you lied to me- unintentionally, of course. “Blinded with love” some would say.

After thinking about it over and over again… I don’t understand why we broke up. It was so sudden and unreal. I can’t tell if I gave up, walked away, whatever you want to call it. It doesn’t matter anymore. Now, I’m just tired.

Even though you claim you couldn’t offer me everything, you always happened to do so. So thank you. I know you refuse to make peace with me, or be my friend. Which is fine. Truthfully, I am tired of playing these games. 

I hope him and I will be friends again. The relationship was brief, but he has taught me a lot. It was a fun adventurous bumpy road.